In my upset yesterday, I forgot to mention… September 13, 2009

before I mention what I forgot to mention, I thought yesterday was two days ago.
very odd.

anyways, i managed to keep my place in school. yayy! just thought that i’d keep the continuity correct because I mentioned that I wasn’t staying in an earlier post. yeah..

i forgot to mention… shoot. i forgot what I was going to say. maybe i was going to mention what i just said. no matter.

anyways, I just needed to be distracted by the daunting write about anything you want essay that is sitting in my microsoft word with half a paragraph.

i think i’m just going to write about how I spent the whole summer alone and how I deal with it…? good? maybe?

eh, it’s not being graded.

maya.

RAAAAGE. September 12, 2009

When I can’t do anything, I feel like I’m being punished for being poor.

This Needed to be Said to Me. August 10, 2009

How To Be Avoided July 30, 2009

Well, seeing as it’s been a while, I thought I might give myself the pleasure of updating the past events of my summer.

Cool. That was fun!
Anyways, for my interesting day of people watching. There were three instances that tickled me.

1. A little boy, too little to be detected by the automatic doors shouting; “open!” Over and over. That was adorable.

2. Marilyn Monroe impersonator. I helped her find a dress. Or tried. She didn’t find anything. Cool chick, though.

3. A Borders Bookstore pedophile? Srsly, who looks for a date by the diet book section. I mean, I’m sure loads of self conscious women go thorugh there but please, leave the kiddies alone!

Cool, that was probably the higlight of my July. Eveyone’s coming back in the next week or so. Meaning, I won’t be as lonely.

Bee-tee-dubz, no more fancy school for the pricie.

Price, OUT!

chances are bound we’d be standing around March 23, 2009

I have this weird habit of wandering around in my basement when I need to clear my head. This always works until something reminds me that I’m walking around in my basement like say, a giant spider the size of my big toe (which is a good sized toe). Anyways, my nightly ritual has been rudely interrupted so, I decided to write a blog post instead. 

I’ve been surprisingly busy lately: a week-long trip to the Caymans with a friend, soccer, track, tech crew for our school musical, wandering around markets. It’s a lot to do. You’d think you’d forget how to feel things one at a time with so much stimulation but I can never cease to feel SOME sort of utter disappointment with each thing. I won’t go into detail but it’s quite odd. Perhaps I’m very selfish I mean a couple of months ago, I’d kill to have something constructive to do, now I just need to find time to get my homework done. Kudos to those who spend everyday busy. Much respect.

I need to try and stay focused on something that could benefit me in the long run, this whole opening myself up to something cool and never following through thing is getting old. 

xMaya

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No One\’s Better Sake - Little Joy

Cream Likes to Spoil November 12, 2008

Wow. It has been quite a while hasn’t it? 

I recall promising that I’d get back to posting regularly as soon as field hockey season was over. Now, I’m not sure if this was declared officially or if I kept that to myself. Regardless, I have betrayed that promise. There wasn’t anything really to update until today. You know, the usual day-to-day wanderings. Boring and a little depressing to reflect on.

But today, was a special day. Let’s see… we’re doing a cool project in french… I’m going to be in a science fair (?)… I lettered (!!!)… yeah, none of those are really that important. The reason today was so special is because today when I opened my email, I was shocked. I had another blog before I had this one, it hasn’t been checked, let alone updated in over a year. Well, someone… don’t know who they were, really, I have no idea, comments on one of my posts: “People should read this.”

So, I decide to read and see if it’s true. Turns out it was a little stream of consciousness (a strangely coherent one, I might add.) about middle school and all this malarkey that went down towards the end of it all. I guess some of the things are still relevant now and I just found it fascinating that a year ago when I should have been in a more superficial state of mind, I handled those problems and the others that loom ahead in a more levelheaded and mature way than I am now. I suppose this is a public apology to everyone for being so annoying and whiney about problems that only I can fix, or no one else for that matter.

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Clouds by The Long Winters

Linux Saved My Life. September 21, 2008

Oh my. It’s been quite a while since I’ve updated .

I’ve actually been busy.

Preseason started for field hockey which means we practice our butts off for twice a day. It really sucked the first week cause I was so out of shape and sore that I didn’t have much energy, also I had to bike and forth that week (I got my mom to drive me the second one… since it was actually possible). The second week I was just exhausted.

The exhaustion is nice though, it really takes my mind off all the little things that have been really stressing me out. This has been a very dark year for me… lots of crying and drama. I’m glad it was real drama though not silly girl drama. Haha, it’s funny when real problems come up, I think of girl drama and laugh because
that doesn’t happen to me anymore, it’s all so private and nice. I feel a little more like an actual person; getting out of the house, being on time to practice, and focusing on doing what the coaches say. I mean I wasn’t sitting on the couch twiddling my thumbs freaking out because I’m somehow not doing what I’m supposed to. Having things to do and places to be really fascinates me… but everyone seems to be really busy most of the time, I must be human.

I love humanity, I really do…

But I’m so tired.

-edit-

One Month Later…

I am now well into the school year. Actually just two weeks into the school year, and it’s already been quite the sophomore year. We came back to school pretty much had a half day (nothing to report on my classes, I have very cool teachers though). Then we had a big picnic (?) I’m not sure why my school’s just weird. After this picnic we went to our respected forums, for those of you not in-the-know, a forum is just a place where you and people in your grade’s lockers all are and they’re clustered in such a way that’s supposed to make for a family feel. Mr. Randolph stresses this family feel by calling the sophomore forum “The Circle of Love.” Well, the class of 2011 converged in The Circle of Love to discuss the trip which would be embarking on in two days, The Pinery. So, that was boring. Then we tested tents… most of them worked fine.

I had some kind of field hockey event after school… a game? Practice? I really don’t remember all that well. It’s been a tiring couple of weeks in terms of field hockey. 

So, I came home, did the five minutes of homework I had, woke up…

Oh! I forgot to mention, my sister goes to the same school as me now! This is a very strange thing for me, and she takes way too long to get ready in the morning. In actuality, she takes as much time as anyone else, she just doesn’t get up early enough to get it all done in good time. 

So, day two! –was so uneventful that there’s nothing to share. Well, there was a shirt in my locker that send “Semper Pi” I think that’s a play off of the marine phrase, “Semper Phi” meaning “Always Faithful,” except, “Pi” for Pinery.

The next day, we leave for The Pinery. Yay! I’m the same person, my class is the same class, the beach was nice, the camp ground was dirty. 

Weekend! I did my homework. 

Monday! We had a dress up day for the Seniors! I wish I was a Senior… I hate school…

Tuesday!

….

 

Ok, I’ve spent two weeks on this post. 

I’m tired of it, but I want to publish it. So… I’m glad you read that. I feel like I left a ton out.  

 

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Another Runaway by Ladyhawke

from the cars parked on the lawn August 1, 2008

Well, It’s been a couple of days. 

A couple of long, stressful, and somewhat exciting days…

They’re filming a movie a few blocks away from my house. A friend of mine (Abby) and I walked down to go see what it was. Turns out it has Michael Cera and Justin Long(?). So, We hung out outside the fleetwood diner and waited around. The film’s called “Youth in Revolt” about some trailer trash kid trying to get laid. Sounds good, yeah? Anyways, it was very surreal seeing all these police officers guarding four blocks of Ann Arbor as you watched professionals stage a car crash over and over. 

Into the Wild = Good book AND Movie

Emile Hirsch = Very attractive

We then went down to underground soundz, browsed around the racks until we got bored. I would have bought something, had I not been broke. 

Which brings me to the stressful part of these past couple of days. I need a job. 

You have to be 16 or over to get any job, really. It sucks. I can’t wait until February 7th. My chances of procuring a job are much higher then.

I think I might have allergies to cats. Everytime I go near them lately, I get all stuffy. Which is sad. I love Ray and G. :(:(

I hung out with Abby, Meghna, and Alia today and last night. We just kinda did nothing. Talked, read some books, magazines, watched Heroes!!, went to blockbuster, PLAYED PRINCE OF PERSIA! I  haven’t played that in forever, and discussed our adolescent acne and the ever approaching school year. It’s like a shadow of imminent doom on my calendar.

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Fire Island, AK - The Long Winters

Weekend Mixtape #1 July 27, 2008

It’s a Funny thing. Trying to go to sleep mad. You end up freaking out about every single little possible thing.  You the wind up sad. Then you fall straight asleep. People should go to bed mad all the time. That said… I have a new thing for you! The Weekend Mixtape!!!

I was going to try and configure a sentence about this awesome photograph I found but I found so many things none of which I could string into a sentence. So, here is a mixtape instead. Since I only have 1GB of space on my file sharing account, all the music in my previous posts were removed. But, you can support the artists and buy their albums. =]

Leaving the Nest

So Easy (So Far) - Low

Everyone Who Pretended to Like Me is Gone – The Walkmen

The Clock (acoustic) – Thom Yorke

Get Out – Dead Confederate

Northwestern Girls – Say Hi

Body Urge – The Great Fiction

Catch Them All – The Headlights

Crazy For This Girl – Evan and Jaron

Slide Away – Oasis

Trying Your Luck – The Strokes

The Age of Understatement – The Last Shadow Puppets

The Hunger – God Love You For a Liar

I Wanna Be Adored – The Stone Roses

Tear You Apart – She Wants Revenge

Today – Smashing Pumpkins

I robbed her party July 25, 2008

I really had no idea what to blog about. Actually, I know exactly what I want to blog about. But there’s so much to say. So, the quick and painless way to do this is make a list

The Past Couple Days

-I stepped on a light bulb and lived to tell the story

-I somewhat conquered my fears heights and [what looks to me like] poor foundations.

-I worked out

-I am very excited for/dreading pre-season

-I need to go to the library

-Crazy summer nights count: 2… 1.5

-Crazy pokemon/recorded television nights: Um.. all of them.

-I need to clean out my iTunes

-I had a good day hanging out with my dad today… I honestly don’t know the last time that happened.

-I got 7 page views today… and two comments… it makes me feel good okay.

-kudos to pat for sending me a ska song i actually really like, and a game that i actually really like

-I got meghna into heroes.

-”I’m not a hero. Hiro from heroes, now thats a real hero. Also Bono.” -Dwight

-Jessica and Rachael are funny.

-Ugly Betty is a good show.

-”Mike is hard. So is Jail. Don’t drink and drive.”

-I grow tired of summer.

I feel like there’s more I need to say. But I don’t quite remember.

Maya

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Shining On – Big D and the Kids table